So the new year came, and I don’t think I really realized it. Funny how that works out. It’s kinda crazy, because it’s already March. When did we get to almost a quarter of the year already? I am still in 2013. I guess it’s true that when you get older, time goes by faster. I like how my Nephrologist (kidney doctor) explained it. Life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it comes out. Funny how life works like that. Anyways, my point was that it’s 2014 already, and I just about didn’t even realize it. If I wrote many checks, I’d have to void so many of them since I’d sign it the wrong year.
For those of you not in the know, I have been unemployed for almost six months now. Looking for a job nowadays is so different from when I was looking for a job over 10 years ago. Then there are the restrictions I have for medical reasons. I’ve been working from home for so long (10 years) I don’t even know what it’s like to “go to work”. It seems like when you say you need to Telecommute for work, people think it’s because I’m lazy and don’t want to go to work. But when you have medical limitations, no one even wants to hear it. All they hear are “work from home”. They never hear the accompaniment. Perhaps that’s why I never hear from anyone. Or when I do, it’s to say, so sorry, the job is now filled.
If anyone has any leads for any web developer jobs, let me know. If you want a copy of my resume, feel free to download it at ymelrose.com. Thanks in advance. I also want to point out that I really need a job before I officially become the loser husband who doesn’t have a job. I already don’t have a job. I don’t want to be a loser too. Once I find the job, then I can go back to being the loser husband that works from home. Hehe.
So. So it’s almost a year since my dad passed away. Talk about anniversaries. This is the sad kind. In Japan, they have words for occasions such as this, but I don’t even know what the english equivalent is. That’s OK though, because I really don’t mind if there is a word for it or not. Regardless, it’s been about a year since it happened.
I want to say that everything is normal, and everything is good and everything is back to how it was before, but it isn’t, and never will be. Anyone who has lost anyone in their lives will know what I’m talking about. Unfortunately, it’s nothing new to me since I’ve lost too many people in my life. But it’s a bit different when it’s a parental unit or sibling or definitely a child.
I think that losing my dad and my job last year was probably the hardest thing to happen to me. The only thing that is keeping my life together is Meesh and my eternal optimism. Oh the prozac helps too. Hehe.
But seriously, my attitude that “everything happens for a reason” and “good things come to those who wait” and “karma’s a bitch” seem to be helping a lot. Honestly though, I better have had a hell of a prior life to have all these crazily bad things happen.
On a different and good note, it will be my 4th anniversary this year of getting a kidney replacement thanks to my awesome sister. That’s a good thing. Because it’s such a good thing, I guess maybe things might even out. I doubt it though. Losing your dad is still a pretty big sonofabitch.
Well, since this is my first post from 2014, I guess I better stop it for now and concentrate on other things like trying to find a job. Or perhaps I should work for myself. I’ve been thinking about making a company and going into my own business.